New idea. A crowdfunder that is not actually online. Has it been done? Is it totally out there with my other dusty, unfinished, mangled ideas? Is it exciting?
I’m tired of thinking. I’m sick of my PC locking up – I have been trying to book festivals, shows, bands, and I am losing out on another summer and letting my band down, as well as myself. And who cares? They do, because they are under the impression I am doing this because I have the resources, but I don’t – and I have no clue how to maintain this amount of pressure when I have three machines that suck. I wish I were a tennis player. Or perhaps I could use my looper if I had time – then I would play solo and look cool and for every effort I make, I won’t have to tell three people how to do something that is wrong, and O can take my band to games and casinos and ignore my impending explosion due to being second, third, fifth-guessed and learn Spanish and karate.
You have a problem. You are the boss. This problem is not getting it. Disrespect may or may not be intended, but remarkable acts of common no-sense are shiningly obvious when you have been captain for years, and the new hire seems to have missed the boat – and asking to swim or learn how to just -find- the damn boat is a huge waste of time for everyone who is already enjoying cocktails.
That’s overboard, I know you are thinking – but the rules are basic. I’m right. If you choose to disregard my auth
ority, you chose to make something out of nothing so many times, you are my burden and even if you have all the right things to say, and you have to say them all the time and rinse and repeat, you have not made an effort to look at yourself and think — how is my behaviour affecting the big picture? Why am I feeling like I know best? What can I do to do my job better and listen. I make mistakes, so do you – and that’s so obvious that I am desperately asking you to correct them. learn, watch, listen, shut mouth, open mind, stop acting like you have a right to be here.
One more chance, and I don’t see you getting this notion. You can’t do the work, and you won’t do what you say. I believe we can do more with less. I believe I know what I am doing and if you were where you should be, I wouldn’t have to tell you to exit the scene.
It’s really hard to work with a person who has no idea how to try harder to be good at what they are supposed to do, and is oblivious to the system and the architect.
As much as I want to believe in you, you are far from comprehending the obvious of the obvious and it is clear to everyone, but my name and my time and my colleagues expect better from me. You have to expect better from yourself.